Dress Me Up!

I'm listening to Of Monsters and Men and trying to be proactive! I already reduced the size of this one dress that I bought and made one old jumper into a pillowcase - sounds weird but it actually worked out quite well! I just have to add some buttons on it so I'll be able to close it up. Here's the pillow:

I can tell you that the fabric is soooo rubbery! I could never have worn the jumper in the first place 'cos of the fabric, but I like that Dia de Los Muertos -style picture so I decided to recycle the whole shirt.

I promised that I would show the new dress that I bought, so here it is!

pssst! Just so you know, I didn't have basically any eye make up (hence the sunglasses) and my hair is also just on a quick messy bun so don't judge my look, okay? 

the dress is from:  Te Amo. Bought it from Nelly.com
The Necklace is from:  Mi Lajki.
Shoes: self tuned H&M shoes.

I must wear some sort of jacket with this dress during the autumn/winter, since the dress is so open
that otherwise I would freeze. 

Other option for the leather jacket is this furry coat. It's quite warm and very comfortable.

I also thought about these shoes. They're heel is much higher
but they're so comfortable on! Both coat and shoes are bought
from retail shops.

So which one of these looks do you prefer? Or should I mix them up? Leather jacket or fur coat? The dress came with see-trough straps, and I think I'm gonna put them on because I don't trust the dress to stay up just because it's tight - and the last thing I wanna end up is having my boobs blob out in the middle of a party. LOL. That would certainly light up the night.  I was thinking about wearing this at my step-mother's 50th Birthday party in next month. And of course I'm gonna wear my hair down with curls and without the sunglasses, because like Dean Winchester said, everyone who wears shades indoors is a douche. Hehe.


Here's also some other pictures unrelated to the dress:

My favorite woolly jumper. From retail shop.
And also PU leather pants. 

(Nemo is sleeping behind me... lol)

I rarely wear this kind of red lipstick anymore - I prefer the more dark and and lilac ones nowadays. 

This Marvel shirt is one of my favorite tops at the moment. 

And the final look. This pretty much sums up how I look when I'm dressed casually. Like when I'm going
shopping or hanging with my friends. 

Oh and PS. we went to Linnanmäki last month with my three friends. For someone who doesn't know, Linnanmäki is an amusement park in Helsinki. It's over 50-years-old and therefore the oldest amusement park in Finland. This was also the last time we saw Rina, since she moved to Australia after this. I miss her so much! She's the one in the red shirt.

Standing in a queue. Going to Vekkula. And we were having a
great time despite our gloomy faces. And my hair was all messed
up and flat because of the rides.  ( the man behind is photo
bombing us.... )

first ride! The Coffee cups! It's probably for children but we decided
to start easy. So much funnn! 

Next time I'm gonna show you my shoes collection! I'm not much of a shoe-person and I buy shoes pretty seldom, but still I have managed to collect a good amount of different kinds of shoes. Even worse I'm with bags - I buy one and use it everyday for years and then I buy another one. Shame on me for being bad at being a woman! But I have always been a little manly in some ways. You should see my movie collection! I just counted that I have almost 250 movies plus TV-series on DVD. And they're all action or horror movies. I have almost 30 zombie movies..... yeah. true story bro! (well I have LOTR, Hobbits and Star Wars movies too........)

Leave a comment or two and let me know what you think! 

XXX
TOKI

There and Back Again, By S.H.

So I finally had the time to do a post about my looks and clothes. Some of these pictures are already kinda old (like few months old) especially the ones with the winter coats since it's already spring in Finland (oh yes, it did finally come!!) and in some of these I don't yet have my new tattoos so I think you're able to spot the not-so-fresh-photos. 

on 29.4. I'm going to take a new addition to my left arm , which I have the tattoos on and it's going to be a full sleeve tattoo ever since, so the kinda crazy looking part-tattoo-part-skin thing which I'm having right now is going to be gone for good! And if you're wondering how expensive these tattoos are my answer will be: not that much for something you're going to have forever. Think about jeans that never wore off or a cake that lasts until you die... and you'll get my point of view! 

So now to the pictures! 

 I love this fur coat on the upper picture! The downside is that it's not that warm, so it's definitely not a winter coat, but a spring/autumn jacket. I also love the top that I'm wearing, it's from Illustrated People. Ps. can you see some creepy stalker on the background? lol

 I had a loose knitted sweater and a cross top underneath it. The top is from Saints and Mortals.

This was taken when it was really cold in Finland. I mean like -17 degrees Celsius. I had one of my favorite shirts on : a Star Wars the Empire Strikes Back T-Shirt. It's actually men's XL-size so it's almost like a skirt to me. and that big lump under my head is a BIGBIGBIG muffle tube scarf, which was necessary in those winter conditions.

Another top from Illustrated People and a high rise ripped shorts. 

And then I'd like to share with you some of the drawings I have made during the dark, long, cold, dark, depressing, cold, long and dark winter! I kinda found my inspiration again and I'm pretty happy about that too! It's been quite a while since I really did draw something.... And beforehand I'd like to announce that YES I AM A HOBBIT FAN! just deal with it. lolll.

Yessssss I love Thranduil. And I personally think that Lee Pace is absolutely freakishly sexypapa. So another YES I had to draw him.. But I did this for my friend. I promised that I would draw her a Thranduil after we went to see the Desolation of Smaug. So I had no other choice. And I think it turned out pretty good! The size is almost A4 and it took about one month to do it since I was also having other things to do incl. work, sleep, friends, etc. But this was fun to do nevertheless!

My camera is not so good so you cannot see all the little details in the hair and in the crown but this is the best I could do! Sorry.

And here are some other things I have done: 

this one is actually still in process. It's for my
Mom and I don't know what colors I should
use so the work is in pause. I was inspired by
Alphonse Mucha in this one...

the next 3 pictures were for my aunt.
I added some text behind the peacock
but it was after the photo was taken...

a broken glass bird. or something.

Semperflorens = forever blooming.

Thorin Oakenshield done very quickly. It was my friend's
birthday card. And oh I know the photo is SO BAD!
but it was taken in a hurry. lol

these were also cards for my Granny and for my aunt. My granny loves flowers
so the Bush Roses were for her.

And yet again a picture for my aunt. this was done in last summer so it's
almost a year old. Apparently my aunt loves my paintings/drawings....?
and I love to paint white roses. figures ?

I would like to tell you about my aunt since I've been talking about her in this post. She's my mother's younger sister who moved to Greece in the early 90's. She fell in love with a man called Christo and they got married. After living in Greece they moved to Germany, Frankfurt in the late 90's. My aunt speaks fluently Finnish, English, Greek, German, French and also some Swedish - so she's quite skilled. In Frankfurt they got their first - and only - child. She was named after my grandmother with a Finnish name, Maija. After Maija was born they moved to a small town called Langenthal. They bought a huge house which was in a horrible condition and even though they were poor they manage to live somehow. My aunt is a ceramist so she brought the bread to the table. The husband, Christo, was no good. Only spending their already little income in some random megalomaniac stuff  while gaining no money himself.

He was a horrible man. A true narcissist in the word's true meaning. Always putting my loving and caring and kind aunt down with horrible ways. He had said that if my aunt tries to leave him, he comes to Finland and kills her parents. And my aunt could not visit Finland because Christo did not want to leave and she could not leave Maija alone with Christo. So she was imprisoned in their huge never-to-complete house. She was truly unhappy and afraid of her husband. And we could do nothing. We visited her as often as we could and tried to help her with the house. My Grandfather is a skilled man in repairing and building so he help with fixing the house. 

Two years ago Christo got a serious lung cancer. He had been smoking since a small kid so it was only a matter of time when he would get sick. The doctors gave him 3-5 years time to live and in 2 weeks he was dead. There was nothing the doctors could have done since the cancer was spread to other organs too. Even though Christo had been verbally, mentally and possibly physically abusing my aunt she was in a shock and she cried hysterically when my mother called her. It's been now two years since Christo died and the house is now fully renovated, my aunt has a better job and studying to become a kindergarten teacher and they visit Finland as often as they can and we also visit them in Germany. Maija has never cried in front of us about her father and she seems like a happy child. She's now 10 and doing all the things a child in that age should do. 

I just wanted to share this with you, since I truly appreciate and respect my aunt, because she is so strong and wonderful person. We are extremely close and before she moved to Greece and when me and my brother were little she would always come to see us whenever she could and she loved us like her own children. And that's why when she asks me to do some paintings for her I cannot refuse. 

Thank you for reading and I hope this gave you some hope whenever you're feeling down. Everything can turn out just well if you're just patient enough! 

Everyone have a great spring and next time i'll tell you about my diet and maybe even show you some pictures... heh. 

XOXO

TOKI

Make Up Store : A Big Disappointment

Hey everyone! I'm truly glad to say that the summer is finally here! I'm sitting in front of a fan and enjoying the warmth and sun. I watched the news and they said that the rest of the Europe is battling against floods and cold weather. So I think we Finns should be pretty happy about this weather we have atm. I don't recall any other summer that has had this many extremely warm and sunny days in a row... But I'm not complaining! Even though our dog is having a bit rough time - but cold showers and a fan blowing all the time i think he'll survive! :)

But now back to the topic! So I went to the Make Up Store in Helsinki this one day ( I had a 50€ gift card so I decided to use it and actually buy some expensive make ups, what I usually rarely do!) I Had already checked out from the internet some products that i wanted to buy and i had BIG hopes for them, 'cos I've heard that Make Up Store's products have very good quality!

So This is what I was GOING to buy: 

So all these would have costed 48€ and I was pretty excited about these products! But when I got there (on Thursday morning) all of these products were sold out! Every last one of them. I am obviously too mainstream... But the story doesn't end there, no. Almost all the shelves were half empty (or half full, depending on how optimistic you are). I was truly, truly disappointed! The lady on the counter didn't offer to help me she just sulked there doing something on the computer - probably she was on facebook. DAMN FACEBOOK! Gladly I had my friend with me so I was able to go through the products with her.

I had decided to use the gift card that day, since it was soon to be expired...
So this is what i bought in the end:

Make Up Store: Tanja (shimmer), 14€

Make Up Store: Gardenia, 16€

Make Up Store: Vanilla, 18€
(yes i know the internet site says 16€, but in the shop it was 18€...)

and some mascaras - not obviously from Make Up Store. They were
RIMMEL's. 

....and after purchasing an expensive (in my opinion)  nail polish
THIS is what i got!! First of all it wasn't the one I wanted in the
first place - it's a slightly darker color, and now this! 

 And the worst thing was that I threw away the pig paper bag that i got from the shop because i had a grocery store bag and purse, so it was only making my life more difficult and the ticket went in to the garbage bin with the bag, so i couldn't even return or change this damaged one. Honestly! I've never been this unhappy with any store never before! And this is supposed to be high-quality? yeah, right. Never buying anything from Make Up Store again.

one layer of nail polish. I didn't want it to be so glimmering...

And I was also disappointed in the MicroShadow. The color is not appealing on my face and the pigment is not the best what I've seen. I've tried to put some water in it - didn't work out. I mean yes, someone might still like these products and i can't blame her. The brand has a high-value mark on it, and i have heard some good things about it, but I was just so disappointed that I lost my faith in the brand.

I've bought some very low-cost make ups and they've been many times more better than these ones. I think they're not worth the money! It's not always like '' the most expensive ones are the best ''. I have learnt that now... the lipgloss is not bad. It smells and tastes sweet (yes it's important, because i wouldn't want to put something smelly and bad tasting on my lips...... lol)  and it said to give you irresistible lips - and i can grant that: my dog cannot resist my lips after putting on the lipgloss... you decide if that is a good or a bad thing.

but still even though the lipgloss is pretty nice, it is not worth the 16€. I mean you can get as good products with half the price from some basic stores.

I don't want you to get upset about this post. If you like Make Up Store then you should like it even after me mocking it. This is not universal opinion - just mine. I just want to know have you had any experience like  this? Or do you have absolutely the opposite opinion about this store? Please comment and let me know - I'm interested in all the stories! 

Here are some pictures of my coords:  (and other things I've bought)

Lace Dress: Vero Moda, 40€. 

Shirt: From eBay. P.S. Sorry about the derp face.. lol

Black Skull Scarf: Gina Tricot ~8€
White Lace Scarf: Flash, on sale 12€.

Shirt: Amsterdam, NEW YORK 22€
Same Skull Scarf
Jeans: Gina Tricot 35€
Boots: Zalando, ~30€

random stuff.....  snail cream example. 

eBay, Brown MISSHA Brow Mascara. ~11€

ASOS, Studded waist belt. ~5€

ASOS.com Evil Eye bracelet, ~6€

ASOS.com studded bow leather  waist belt, ~6€

Nelly.com it was supposed to be waterproof mascara, but it turned out to be normal one...
lash Building Mascara: 5€
Lip Volume with collagen, lip balm: 3€.
(sting like hell, swelling your lips a bit.. really hurts.. XD )

Dress: Only, from sale ~21€.
necklace: Asos.com ~10€.
Boots: Zalando.

we went to the movies to watch the new Evil Dead. it was pretty good..
Even though they had changed it from the original movie,
which was made in the 80's. 

This was all of it for now!  Thank you for reading! Leave comment and questions. :)) see you!!

XXXX, 
TOKI